Finished

Okay, I've finished Assassin's Creed 3 and am done neglecting everything else in my life. I know I said the other day that I shouldn't let these things stand in my way but fuck! That game is unreal, seriously, even if you don't like video games, get someone you know who does and sit down beside them as they are playing. The story is mind-blowing.

Since this blog is called Recognising My Demons I suppose it's only right I look at one of my biggest ones for the second post in a row: procrastination. Sometimes I sit there doing nothing at all and I'll be thinking, "Move! Go do work!" This might go on to a certain point in the day when I'll say, "Ah, I'll do it tomorrow." And the process usually repeats itself. I am getting better but it's a painfully slow road. I'll get working good for a while then slip back into laziness.

It's like there's two people inside of me; one, who wants to work hard and succeed and this other guy; who wants to sit on his arse, get fat and play games/watch TV etc. There is a battle going on between them and it's amazing how such a lazy bastard can do so well in a fight.

Sometimes I don't even notice. In between this paragraph and the last one I spent five minutes on Facebook. I didn't even think about it, it was automatic. I did it again! Just before the last sentence. I swear on all that is holy I'm not making that up.

I need to get more disciplined. Will Smith said (I know, Will Smith, isn't exactly Plato but he's right here) that the people who make it are the ones who work hard. They're the ones who put up blog posts or worked on other things while me and 7 gazillion other people played games the past couple of days. I have to become one of them.

Sometimes I think I need to go to Asia and get monks to beat the shit out of me with sticks for 2 years to whip me into shape. Although I laugh at the idea there is a part of me going, "Do it, do whatever it takes. You want to succeed so you have to go through pain and sacrifice. You want something and if that's the way to get it then go to Asia, look those monks in the eyes after they hit you, bend over and say, 'Please sir, can I have some more?'"