There is good and bad in all of us. The idea that there are people who are just evil or good is wrong. I believe both exist inside of us, side by side, at the same time.The point of the blog is to explore this conflict and the other paradoxes of the human mind. I'm not a psychologist or anything like it but I believe I have insight.
I get some thoughts which are completely narcissistic and selfish. Whatever happens around me I think about how I can look good in the situation. On the other hand I care deeply about everyone in the world and am the kind of person who would never hurt someone to get ahead. You'll end up very lonely that way. I aim to explore the conflicting things going on in my head and why my brain gives me thoughts that do me absolutely no good.
It will take the form of a diary which I aim to update every day but may be every couple of days. I will now talk about something which just happened in my area to illustarte what I'm going to cover. Then there will be another couple of posts.
A young lad from round my way got kicked in the head by a horse. He is in an induced coma and is meant to be in a pretty bad way. While saying I want him to die is completely wrong, there is a part of me that does.
It's sick and selfish. I heard about it and after thinking of the consequences should he die; the sickening pain it will cause to the family and the whole community. Young people's death are always the worst. But after this I was thinking how it may provide an opportunity for me to give some wise words to those around and a chance to be a strong person, a hero.
I don't want the lad to die. That is certain but I get these weird thoughts and I think it's important to try understand them. They are a part of me, I don't like them, but they need to be understood. I don't know if other people think like this.
I suppose I'm searching for hardship, looking for a way to gain respect and for people to look up to me. I want the opporunity to comfort people. But I need to find a way to do this without wishing death on someone. I hope the kid pulls through but if he doesn't I'll do my best to help. Because it will make me look good? Yeah, but also because I care about his family and friends.The mind is strange.
I get some thoughts which are completely narcissistic and selfish. Whatever happens around me I think about how I can look good in the situation. On the other hand I care deeply about everyone in the world and am the kind of person who would never hurt someone to get ahead. You'll end up very lonely that way. I aim to explore the conflicting things going on in my head and why my brain gives me thoughts that do me absolutely no good.
It will take the form of a diary which I aim to update every day but may be every couple of days. I will now talk about something which just happened in my area to illustarte what I'm going to cover. Then there will be another couple of posts.
A young lad from round my way got kicked in the head by a horse. He is in an induced coma and is meant to be in a pretty bad way. While saying I want him to die is completely wrong, there is a part of me that does.
It's sick and selfish. I heard about it and after thinking of the consequences should he die; the sickening pain it will cause to the family and the whole community. Young people's death are always the worst. But after this I was thinking how it may provide an opportunity for me to give some wise words to those around and a chance to be a strong person, a hero.
I don't want the lad to die. That is certain but I get these weird thoughts and I think it's important to try understand them. They are a part of me, I don't like them, but they need to be understood. I don't know if other people think like this.
I suppose I'm searching for hardship, looking for a way to gain respect and for people to look up to me. I want the opporunity to comfort people. But I need to find a way to do this without wishing death on someone. I hope the kid pulls through but if he doesn't I'll do my best to help. Because it will make me look good? Yeah, but also because I care about his family and friends.The mind is strange.
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